Anamnesis Sophia: The Unforgetting of Wisdom
UPDATE BELOW 11-3-25*
UPDATE
So, I want to first explain where the idea for the website came from and what I hope to accomplish with it.
My Journey
I have been on a personal spiritual journey since I can remember. One of my first memories is the day I was signed up for a Christian school. There I forcibly studied (I'm not saying it was bad or that I would now have preferred a different upbringing in any way) until I was expelled in the 7th grade. It was shortly thereafter at my first public school that I learned about D.N.A. and evolution. It just madeso much more sense than what I had been taught my whole life that I have been compelled ever since, to find the truth. I'm 39 now, so literally 34 years of continually increasing spiritual study and development.
I've had more time than most to learn about these things. My natural interest (unceasing hyper-focus) in subjects like philosophy, programming, physics, astronomy, biology, psychology and religion to name a few along with my pattern recognition skills led to an understanding from a meta-cognitive perspective. That alone is a place many aren't aware of. From there I've spent years curating my thoughts and behaviors through many different (sometimes painful) methods. My biggest revelations came though when I started researching a variety of ancient religions and symbols and meditating on them with the help of psychedelics. Which is a tough sell for anyone not familiar with them, although in more recent years, laws have changed, formal research has been done and public opinion is beginning to improve, I can personally attest that there is almost always a shock factor when the use of a sacrament is brought into the conversation.
I can somewhat understand because I had the same apprehensions. They aren't for most people, but they've shown me things that are beyond what anything here and especially my mind is capable of generating on my own. Later on I will share some of my visions and experiences, but I just want to say now that every single person has their own way to make contact with whatever it is we're searching for, I'm just here to profess that you hold all the answers you're looking for. We all do. You have to heal yourself. You have to love yourself, trust yourself, value yourself and honor yourself. It is then that you will be ready for the Ultimate answer, it's not 42. Well maybe it is, but not in the sense of all that I just said.
What makes my perspective different is that I'm not a formal academic in the modern sense or just a practitioner - I've spent decades bridging both worlds, connecting the dots between ancient wisdom and modern understanding. There are so many levels though, I thought I was done a few times before I realized there's always deeper to go and each level has its own ecosystem. I think some of the most crucial parts of my journey though are ineffable. Maybe that's the point though, it's where a person must journey alone.
What This Website Is
This website is intended to be a repository of those experiences and universal truth across human history and honoring as many as I can that have taken the same path.
I will be the first to tell you that I don't know everything, I do my best to fact check any references and provide them and any accompanying links whenever possible. The point though is all those things are already available, a lot of my work is seemingly built upon the knowledge of countless individuals in again countless fields and in a way it is, in a way it's my way to back up what I'm saying. I am trying to build a web of foundational materials I think someone on similar journeys will find beneficial, whether it's my words or someone else's I don't care, I just think some will find it easier to agree with established ideas and terms than just mine. I owe credit to any and every outside source I've ever used though. Every experience I've had has played a pivotal role in my personal and spiritual development.
Again, let me explain that countless humans have already realized the same things and probably much more than I have with methods other than mine. Nothing new under the sun type stuff, but what I can do is share my perspective. My truth. How I got there and what it means to me. The purpose being to help those who don't have decades to devote or are unable or unwanting to take the same path as me, to still connect, to see the patterns and to enjoy the same peace I feel. A shortcut is all, a helping hand. I want to provide every level of support, so at some point you'll be reading things that make no sense and that's fine.
Why I'm Doing This
It's how I found peace in a chaotic world, it's how I overcame lifelong depression, crippling anxiety, hopelessness and just so many of the troubles in my life. I'm not just sharing ideas - I'm living proof they work. The difference between who I was and who I am now is night and day, and if I can help even one person make that shift, it's worth it. So, of course I want to find the best way to make it accessible to those with similar interest that might not be as far along.
My legacy has been something I've always been aware of, what can I leave behind? For most of my life money hasn't been an option and even now view it as a shortsighted remedy. I sometimes like to think of Satan as shortsighted or selfish thinking and God as all-encompassing consideration. That's a pretty dramatic way to put it, but in this example you'll kind of see how I navigate my world. Not every decision is that polarized, but it's commonly a mix of both in my view as I believe every action has a grander effect than we are able to perceive. Like the Butterfly Effect.
I think that the most important questions in life are "what am I?"(consciousness), "What is this place?" (multiple fields of science), "why am I here?" (life's purpose), "What happens when I'm done being here?" (legacy, afterlife). In some of my books I've answered some of these in my own ways, I've come up with my own theories to describe my personal understandings, and I think I've yet to share my opinion on an afterlife (I will later), but as for a legacy, I want to help provide these understandings for those yet to find it in perpetuity because I found it to be so incredibly liberating after "suffering" for so long.
I just want to help people connect with God. Now and when I'm long gone.
My Approach
One of the most common questions I hear is "Why does God let bad things happen to good people?". I can answer it easily, but it's a hard answer for anyone going through hard times to understand. It's all perfect. Now, I will say that I really hope there is some mechanism to prevent the consciousness from suffering in the event of extreme or painful instances of death, but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. That's not something you want to tell a someone in the midst of grief. I can and will answer a lot of questions, and at some level my personal view is what I'm here to express, but each person has to find their own mix. We're not all here to learn the same things or do the same things, but a connection with Source or whatever you want to call it is how we unlock our full potential.
What I don't want to do though is spoil anything, you must come to your own understanding, not regurgitating the thoughts of others. But I do want to tell you why I think you should care about it more than anything else in your life.
That being said, you must have a foundation of knowledge, that's what AWAKENING or ENLIGHTENMENT is all about, remembering. When I talk about remembering or awakening, I mean recognizing truths that already exist within you. It's not about learning something new - it's about clearing away the conditioning and noise until you can see what was always there.
This isn't just philosophy for philosophy's sake. I'm talking about practical shifts in how you see yourself, how you handle stress, how you make decisions, how you find meaning in the mundane. Real life application.
About The Books
Inspiration for my books came from people in my life that would ask me a question that required a deeper answer, I never intended to sell anything, I only published them because that was the easy part, it is so cheap to self-publish and print your own copies its crazy not to. I just wanted to give physical copies to my friends, they automatically get listed in one form or another though, so I figured why not.
I wrote them all back-to-back though and did them all by myself in a matter of weeks, so there are errors in things like spacing, I put in way too many lists, there's a lot I'd like to do to improve the content I put out. Taking more time and just saying what I think instead of what other people have said is the solution I believe. So instead of fixing books that were really only meant for one person, I took them off AMAZON and will put them back on here for free, which was my original intention. I'm in the beginning stages of a new book. One that reflects a lot of the info on here and some exclusive material as well. I'm going to take my time and hopefully it'll be easier for more people to understand and implement in real life.
I used chatgpt and a few other LLM's to build the website and help edit my books, which was an awesome experience and I'm grateful that tools like that now exist. I think though that moving forward, I'm just going to speak for myself, how I think. I would rather have poor grammar than to sound like a robot. So that's something that will be different. You'll notice my writing style evolving. Earlier work was more formal, more structured. Now I'm just talking to you like I would a friend over coffee, because that's when the real conversations happen. I just have a hard time expressing my thoughts sometimes and it's an imposing thought to write it all out without getting off topic. ;) I'm sure the more I practice writing the better I'll get and feedback is always appreciated!
I'll be updating something on here most days, I kinda view the books and website as extensions of each other so when work on one I update the other accordingly.
Also just want to add that I will soon add a section for my art, take care everyone!
New update
About Anamnesis Sophia
UPDATE
So, I want to first explain where the idea for the website came from and what I hope to accomplish with it.
My Journey
I have been on a personal spiritual journey since I can remember. One of my first memories is the day I was signed up for a Christian school. There I forcibly studied (I'm not saying it was bad or that I would now have preferred a different upbringing in any way) until I was expelled in the 7th grade. It was shortly thereafter at my first public school that I learned about D.N.A. and evolution. It just made so much more sense than what I had been taught my whole life that I have been compelled ever since, to find the truth. I'm 39 now, so literally 34 years of continually increasing spiritual study and development have brought me to where I am.
I've had more time than most to learn about these things and that's why I feel compelled to tell my story. My natural interest (unceasing hyper-focus) in subjects like philosophy, programming, physics, astronomy, biology, psychology and religions to name a few along with my pattern recognition skills led to an understanding from a meta-cognitive perspective. That alone is a place many aren't aware of. From there I've spent years curating my thoughts and behaviors through many different (sometimes painful) methods. My biggest revelations came though when I started researching a variety of ancient religions and symbols and meditating on them with the help of psychedelics. Which is a tough sell for anyone not familiar with them, although in more recent years, laws have changed, formal research has been done and public opinion is beginning to improve, I can personally attest that there is almost always a shock factor when the use of a sacrament is brought into the conversation.
I can somewhat understand because I had the same apprehensions. They aren't for most people, but they've shown me things that are beyond what anything here and especially my mind is capable of generating on my own and helped me heal from things that no doctor or medication ever could. Later on, I will share some of my visions and experiences, but I just want to say now that every single person has their own way to make contact with whatever it is we're searching for, I'm just here to profess that it's real and it's better than you can imagine. You have to heal yourself. You have to love yourself, trust yourself, value yourself and honor yourself. It is then that you will be ready for the Ultimate answer, it's not 42. Well maybe it is, but not in the sense of all that I just said.
What makes my perspective different is that I'm not a formal academic in the modern sense or just a practitioner - I've spent decades bridging both worlds, connecting the dots between ancient wisdom and modern understanding. There are so many levels though, I thought I was done a few times before I realized there's always deeper to go and each level has its own ecosystem. But I have reached the point of enlightenment, connection with source, I've witnessed what I now realize are past lives, I've seen the universe from countless perspectives, places and dimensions beyond anything we have words for here. Places more real, that feel more like home. But it's like I was shown backwards, so I wouldn't be able to understand right away. For years I was just as mystified by the symbols and experiences as anyone else. The difference is my frequency and intensity. I kept pushing, kept asking more and more questions until one day it just clicked. Not that I have it all together, but I can see the picture in my puzzle, and I know what it is. I understand why my life had to be exactly the way it was. That was a huge part of learning to love myself.
I think some of the most crucial parts of my journey though are ineffable. Maybe that's the point though, it's where a person must journey alone, where neither myself nor anyone else can guide you, only your heart.
What This Website Is
This website is intended to be a repository of those experiences and universal truth across human history and honoring as many as I can that have taken the same path.
I will be the first to tell you that I don't know everything, I do my best to fact check any references and provide them and any accompanying links whenever possible. The point though is all those things are already available, a lot of my work is seemingly built upon the knowledge of countless individuals in again countless fields and in a way, it is, in a way it's how I back up what I'm saying. I am trying to build a web of foundational materials I think someone on similar journeys will find beneficial, whether it's my words or someone else's I don't care, I just think some will find it easier to agree with established ideas and terms than just mine. I owe credit to any and every outside source I've ever used though. Every experience I've had has played a pivotal role in my personal and spiritual development.
Again, let me explain that countless humans have already realized the same things and probably much more than I have with methods other than mine. Nothing new under the sun type stuff, but what I can do is share my perspective. My truth. How I got there and what it means to me. The purpose being to help those who don't have decades to devote or are unable or unwanting to take the same path as me, to still connect, to see the patterns and to enjoy the same peace I feel. A shortcut is all, a helping hand. I want to provide every level of support, so at some point you'll be reading things that make no sense and that's fine.
Why I'm Doing This
It's how I found peace in a chaotic world, it's how I overcame lifelong depression, crippling anxiety, hopelessness and just so many of the troubles in my life. I'm not just sharing ideas - I'm living proof they work. The difference between who I was and who I am now is night and day, and if I can help even one person make that shift, it's worth it. So, of course I want to find the best way to make it accessible to those with similar interest that might not be as far along.
My legacy has been something I've always been aware of, what can I leave behind? For most of my life money hasn't been an option and even now I view it as a shortsighted remedy I want to change the world. I sometimes like to think of Satan as shortsighted or selfish thinking and God as all-encompassing consideration. That's a pretty dramatic way to put it, but in this example you'll kind of see how I navigate my world. Not every decision is that polarized, but it's commonly a mix of both in my view as I believe every action has a grander effect than we are able to perceive. Like the Butterfly Effect.
I think that the most important questions in life are "what am I?"(consciousness), "What is this place?" (multiple fields of science), "why am I here?" (life's purpose), "What happens when I'm done being here?" (legacy, afterlife). In some of my books I've answered some of these in my own ways, I've come up with my own theories to describe my personal understandings, and I think I've yet to share my opinion on an afterlife (I will later), but as for a legacy, I want to help provide these understandings for those yet to find it in perpetuity because I found it to be so incredibly liberating after "suffering" for so long.
I just want to help people connect with God. Now and when I'm long gone.
My Approach
You must have a foundation of knowledge, that's what AWAKENING or ENLIGHTENMENT is all about, remembering. When I talk about remembering or awakening, I mean recognizing truths that already exist within you. It's not about learning something new, it's about clearing away the conditioning and noise until you can see what was always there.
This isn't just philosophy for philosophy's sake. I'm talking about practical shifts in how you see yourself, how you handle stress, how you make decisions, how you find meaning in the mundane. Real life application.
About The Books
Inspiration for my books came from people in my life that would ask me a question that required a deeper answer, I never intended to sell anything, I only published them because that was the easy part, it is so cheap to self-publish and print your own copies its crazy not to. I just wanted to give physical copies to my friends, they automatically get listed in one form or another though, so I figured why not.
I wrote them all back-to-back though and did them all by myself in a matter of weeks including the website and most of what's on here, so there are errors in things like spacing, I put in way too many lists, there's a lot I'd like to do to improve the content I put out. Sometimes I'll come back to the site a day or two later and find some seemingly obvious errors or when I got some of my books they just didn't come out how I wanted. Taking more time and just saying what I think instead of what other people have said is the solution I've come up with. So instead of fixing books that were really only meant for one person, I took them off AMAZON and will put them back on here for free, which was my original intention. I'm in the beginning stages of a new book. One that reflects a lot of the info on here and some exclusive material as well. I'm going to take my time and hopefully it'll be easier for more people to understand and implement in real life.
I used chatgpt and a few other LLM's to build the website and help edit my books, which was an awesome experience and I'm grateful that tools like that now exist. I think though that moving forward, I'm just going to speak for myself, how I think. I would rather have poor grammar than to sound like a robot. So that's something that will be different. My earlier work was more formal, more structured, what I thought made a good book. Now I'm just talking to you like I would a friend, what makes me, me. I just have a hard time expressing my thoughts sometimes and it's an imposing thought to write it all out without getting off topic. ;) I'm sure the more I practice writing the better I'll get and feedback is always appreciated!
I'll be updating something on here most days, I kinda view the books and website as extensions of each other so when work on one I update the other accordingly.
Also just want to add that I will soon add a section for my art, take care everyone!
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